I am having a great day!!

Today while riding home from church, my daughter told me about a young person dying. The effects of cancer had finally taken it's lasting toll claiming her life. It was just a random conversation with my daughter; however, it landed not so randomly in my heart. This young person had battled long and hard. Overcame many valleys. Climbled impossible cliffs. Lifted others with a spirit, a will, a smile, with hope. Just this weekend, I screamed to the top of my lungs while riding with my son, learning to drive. Our family erupted in laughter at my screaming and applying of brakes in the passenger side. Just this weekend, I laid in the Florida sun with my daughter. We compared our tans each day. I followed her to the hot tub every nite so she could talk to a fellow she had met earlier in the week. I watched my son flex his muscles before applying suntan lotion and walking the beach. I fell soundly asleep each night as the ocean blew the wind across the room and my husband would speak my name softly saying goodnite. Soundly, asleep. A comfort, a joy, a pleasure. Sleep for the parents tonight as they lay their loved child to rest. Months upon months of restless slumber. Tossing, realizing they could not comfort or control the pain felt by their own flesh and blood. Agony. Troubling. Wondering why. Wanting to scream. Begging for help. Resolving the finality. The blessed peace in closure. The burdened heart of a mother, facing the loss. I have not the perfect life. I have not the perfect family. But, I do have my family. I am not sorting through pictures to remember the face or the time. I just stand up from my chair, walk across the floor, open the door and say "How are you doing?" My daughter will reply she is bored. My son will tell me how many boxing matches he has won. My husband will quote the lastest sports info. And, just how am I doing? I am having a great day.