Pillowtop, firm, whatever your preference, or should I say our preference.

We need a new mattress. Ours is 20 years old. My husband purchased our present mattress a couple of weeks after we were married. We had been sleeping on a waterbed and 225 on one side does not make a great sleep for the 120 on the other side, plus it just wasn't comfortable for either of us. Well, we have looked at mattresses for about two months. I had decided that with the precious, estate money my parents left us, we would purchase a new mattress as well as a bedroom suite. Now, we do have furniture but nothing matches and I really wanted a solid cherry set. Then, I think about my parents humble home and my mother's random furniture she purchased through the years. I remember the time when my parents got a new mattress. It was a Beautyrest. Somehow this purchase possibility has caused me a great deal of stress and concern. I want to be practical. I want to be wise. I also want the best mattress, which is the most expensive. Dilemma. I don't even have any idea how much our mattress cost when my husband bought it. It has served us well. As I am changing the sheets this morning, I stop to wonder why this is bothering me so badly. Do I feel gulity? Do I feel as if I don't deserve this? Should I stow away the money for savings? For our chlidren's college? For retirement? I remember talking to a dear lady in our church. She is so precious and full of wisdom and love. I told her my concern over doing the right thing with a little of this money and she responded with "buy yourself a nice, cherry bedroom suite, something your children may want to have one day. Your mother would want you to have it." I think about how long it takes to save money these days. I know furniture will fade and become old. I know a new mattress will one day slope in the middle and sag. Maybe the dilemma isn't in the price, the firmness, pillowtop versus Temperpedic. Maybe my dilemma is deciding what is really bothering me about this whole thing. Maybe it is because I have no idea what I need. Maybe I have no idea what I want.