The morning after.

Living a life without regrets. An honorable and noble position to be in; however, difficult to do. I can be quick with my mouth and fast with my thoughts in the heat of the battle. I will tell you exactly how I feel, but is my position always right? Some people live in constant conflict or distress. It is the stress of the job, money issues,difficult people at work, demands, frustration with the system or just anything that can set someone off. I worked with someone like this. Conversations with her were always on edge, sharp, loss of trust for someone, the work just could not be done. I am the first to admit I want things done right for everyone involved. I voice my complaints or feelings to my superiors and keep trucking. I don't put my co-workers on the defensive because they know I am in it for everybody. I don't put myself on the defensive because I am comfortable with where I stand. Yes, I have made mistakes. I have regretted saying something or treating someone with a lack of patience, but I always try to apologize, listen and do a better job the next time. Regrets. How I love and live with my family is the essence of how my children will learn to treat the world. Handling conflict and things not being fair is a fact of life. I do not want to raise crippled children who cannot withstand the pressures of life. Teaching them to know the right way even if no one else can see it, so no matter what others do, they will stay on the right road. Teaching them there are difficult people along the way. They must learn to deal with them instead of letting these type people control them and dictate responses. Learning to maintain peace and harmony does not mean one is approving of the situation, rather it is a mature, noble reaction when others may be out of control. There are many buttons in life that will be pushed by opposing forces. It is going to happen no matter what we choose to do. What I can do is to live each day completely, honestly, sincerely, knowing when I lay my head on my pillow at night, the events of my day will not play over in my head with what I should have done.