Love does not fear.

I read about Billy Graham's wife, Ruth, today. She passed away yesterday. As Billy was explaining his devotion for her, he stated, "she is my soulmate of 62 years, I love her more today than ever before and I can't imagine life without her." Ruth was evidently a special person. She possessed optimism in the face of defeat. She loved people and life, but the words that rang true to me was her belief that "love does not fear." She raised four children and spent much time in prayer on her knees covering them each day. I fight fear each day. I struggle with the worst case senario in issues with our children. I desire their safety and want them to make good choices. Fear is evil I have decided. It takes away freedom and peace. Two simple words that mean so much to people. I am tired of being afraid. I want to possess the peace of letting go and using God more and me less. I don't know why I think I can outguess God, outthink Him, know more than Him and actually it is nothing more than a circus ride when I do this. I am ready to get off now. I have gone around enough, for longer than I intended. I am handing my ticket over and I am going to pass the next time the merry-go-round of fear wants me to hop on. It always looks like the thing to do, but I'm not buying that ticket anymore. I am tired of making a clown out of myself.