Another one is yet to find....peace.

28 years old and dead. Found dead. Alone. Naked. More so than in just the clothing way. Face down. Surrounded by tiny bits of medicine that maybe weren't his cure. I wonder. He had a major role in the gay cowboy movie. He was in Mel Gibson's war movie. He was a "young, upcoming actor." Nothing has been conclusive. Autopsy results did not offer much help as of today. No trail of paper to read or unwind. Found by a housekeeper who could not shake him to awaken. I wonder. Now the 20 dollar bill rolled tightly beside his bed. Evidence of snorting drugs. Who knows? The first time he tried, may have taken his life. Maybe he was successful many other times and this was just unfortunate if so. I wonder. Peace like a river. Peace like a river ina my soul. This peace is not found in the starring roles of Hollywood or the uptown apartments suited with the finest furniture. This peace is not to be bought, borrowed, sought from what the world has to give. No it is a peace that flows from the One who holds the future and cares when we are afraid. The One who sees our mistakes, waits for us, hurts for us, has plans for us and yet, will never push us into submission. It simply is not the peace one is looking for. I do not know this young fellow's heart. Only He above does. I do not know what turmoil, despair, regret, confusion or addiction he may have had. I am sad for his child who will never know her dad. She will only see pictures. I am sorrowful for his parents who may wonder what if? I hope others may see this occasion to get help, ask for help, find the One who is the peace like a river ina my soul. A river that never runs dry. A river that knows no boundaries and can flow into the loneliest of places to offer the drink of life that never goes dry.